Tempting fate

Lately, as I’ve been getting in bed at night I’ve been doing a lot of thinking.  It’s usually pretty short-lived since I’m so exhausted I can’t keep the wheels turning long, but there’s been some serious reflecting going on. 

There’s a lot of crap out there.  Like really, a LOT of bad stuff.  I can’t help but wonder how or why I have been so blessed.  Sometimes stop and think about all the horrible things that people have to deal with and I’m amazed at how fortunate I am.  I’m not saying I don’t have my trials and struggles, because I do.  But even though they feel pretty major to me sometimes, I would much rather deal with the crap I have over most of the other options. 

When I think about how lucky I am to have a loving family- both my immediate little family and my extended family- a warm home, health, a job, an education, a safe place to live, food, friends, the chance to do fun things, etc…my heart just feels as though it could burst!  The fact that I’ve been spared from war, famine, disease, catastrophe, and so many other things makes me feel weak with gratitude.  Life could be so much worse, in so many different ways, how could I ever have the audacity to complain?

Sometimes I can’t help but feel so unworthy to have been spared such heartache.  I know there are so many better people than me out there who have suffered.  I’m truly so lucky.  I hope someday I can be the kind of person that deserves such good fortune, and in turn be the kind of person that can bless the lives of others.

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